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Friday, 18 November 2011

I DID IT!!!!!

hiya, i did it! i beat the monster!!! yesterday i had my check up mammo and ultrasound and blood tests and all was clear!!! the cancer has gone! left the building!!!! i am so happy! it's a huge weight off my shoulders, an enormous relief! i am still trying to get my head around it to be honest, i feel kind of numb, don't fully grasp it yet.

i can feel the tension that has been building op these last 11 months, now that i don't need to fight and be strong i can feel how tired i really am. i could just crawl up in a little ball and sleep for a few weeks but no! last night i celebrated with pink champagne!!!

today i made my first appointment with the plastic surgeon, doesn't sound like a big deal but trust me it is! my heart was pounding like mad while i was on the phone!!! 13 February 2012 i will see him, yeah, long wait but it's okay, i need the time to get myself mentally ready for this next step. in the meantime i need to get some strength back so as from next week i'll go swimming once a week with a friend, start small and build myself back up, pick up the pieces.

it is really strange, like standing at an intersection and not knowing which way to go, kind of not knowing where my place is in this universe. i'm not exactly the person is was before...

i have an appointment with my psychologist this coming Tuesday, he will help me clear things up lol!

I think i'm just going to enjoy life for a while, not worry too much about the future, just enjoy now.

love & peace



  1. So VERY happy for you, Tanya!! That is the best news I've heard in a long time!! You are such a strong person. Such an inspiration. I only hope that if I'm faced with circumstances such as yours I can pull it off with such grace and dignity! You Rock!!!! XXX

  2. So very very happy for you my sweetheart. Now get on with the rest of your life - paint, craft, love and live - out LOUD! xxxxxxx

  3. I am so thrilled for you. You fought it and you won! You have surely been to hell and back, but now you can sit back, relax and enjoy the pink champagne :-) And then you can catch up on some much needed sleep. If you are tire, listen to your body - it is telling you something ......

  4. Thanks good and congratulations strong woman :-)

  5. Hooray!!! So glad to hear all your good news!

  6. hey
    ik ben zo zo blij voor je!
    dat je deze vreselijke ziekte hebt overwonnen!
    Jouw doorzettingsvermogen
    en positieve ingesteldheid heeft hier toe allemaal bijgedragen
    Je bent een supervrouw
    die ook hele mooie dingen maakt!


    Tine (Brugge)

  7. I am so relieved and happy to read your posts. Thrilled you got to do so much wonderful travelling!! You deserve that and all your heart can hold.

    Bless you for bringing awareness to so many women - we'll never know how many you saved. You are a brave inspiration, thank you. Get your strength back and onward to reconstruction! Bless you.

  8. For some reason I didn't get an update from your blog but it doesn't matter. I still can congratulate you with the wonderful news, what a wonderful way to start the new year!!!
    Hope you get your strenght back soon and good luck with your appointment at the surgeon!!

  9. Ik moest ineens aan je denken gisteravond......en hier lees ik met tranen in mijn ogen je goede nieuws!!! Ik wens je een fantastisch 2012 en ben blij en opgelucht om te zien dat het zo goed met je gaat. En vanaf februari is er weer een drempel genomen.....
    het ga je goed en hopenlijk tot spoedig ziens.

  10. hallo,
    probeer nu maar weer op krachten te komen en te genieten van creatieve dingen de rest volgt wel

  11. Hi Tanya, just a quick word to let you know how much we enjoyed meeting you in Lille. You are an inspiring lady and you were the highlight of the show !! love from Tres Jolie, Aunty Pauline, the Newcastle lass and the Good one !!


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