painting Goddesses

some pics of what i have been up to in Suzi's goddess & poet class

of course most of the products used are Ranger but i am loving the golden fluid Acrylics too!

see i can post twice in one week! lol

light heart bright soul

Yesterday i had the most wonderful day outside with the kids, working in the garden, they helped a bit and they played lots. it was perfect weather, t-shirt and shorts weather! not that i wear shorts!!!

I planted my very first strawberries ever, giving it a go seeing i do live in Haspengouw which is the fruit region of Belgium! i planted lots and lots of pretty flowers, bulbs really, so i will be able to watch them grow into flowers! i cleaned the pond, swept the garden path, very symbolic for me, sweeping away the remains of a Winter filled with many changes, some troublesome, some for the best, some nice, some unexpected, some i saw coming, anyway, all swept away leaving a clean open path.

we had dinner outside, i just love eating outdoors, it gives such a sense of freedom and being part of nature, huge open sky, warmth on your skin, breeze through your hair, oh well, you can tell by now i am an outdoor's girl. I feel closer to the Universe when i'm outside.

i did some more drawing in my pencil art journal, i discovered that i cannot use my blending pencil on this paper! damn, it makes strange marks on my faces, too bad but they will now have to stay that way, they look weathered, maybe from the great outdoors? a lesson learned!

not the best pic here but non the less, here is my " no way back" girl, she has decided to open her heart to possibilities, as you can see on her face she is still getting used to her own idea but believes in it and will not hide from it. determinde as ever to make her life her own.this girl is rising above it all feeling free and light of heart, letting her Soul lead the way on her free and wonderful journey. she has a bright Soul and spreads love being free of burden.

(my flying doll is totally inspired by Suzi Blu! what a chick!)

more journaling will be added at the bottom but it was way past midnight when i put her down last night.

today the Sun is shining again, so i'm off to get these tv-watching kids dressed to go play outside and get some wonderful colour to their cheeks. i need to do some more weeding and cleaning up in the garden before i head off for my girly holiday in Spain with my friend Sue!!! only a few more sleeps!!!! the only thing i am dreading is the flight! i hate flying, honestly i am so scared of taking off and landing! i have never flown on my own before so it is an adventure and a huge challenge for me, one i am of course going to take because i have told myself that i can do it! i am invincible! :-) and i have a middle seat between two strangers! i can hardly cry and panic while sitting between strangers! and who knows, there might be a really cute single guy sitting next to me hihi. on the return flight i have a window seat! i am going to love that, once we have taken off that is!

anyway! i'm off to the garden!!!
you all have a wonderful day filled with pretty things and love!!!
xox tanya

ps if you were to leave a comment today i might just decide to pick a lucky person to recieve a little something....

life is love

well, you know, with me being single, divorced and all that... i kind of tell myself, and the whole world for that matter, that i am going to stay single the rest of my life, love has no place in my world, done with it, got the freaking t-shirt! away with the whole relationship thing, it sucks. well it does!

and then there are those days that the sun is shining and you want to go take a walk, on your own is fine but hummmm with a partner it would be nicer? uhhhhh NO!!! men suck remember!!!!

no, there are those days, well moments really, not full days!!! God forbid! but moments that i start to feel just a little lonely, just a little ( i am not admitting to anymore than that hihi!)

but the thing is, i remember having this feeling when i was in a relationship!when i was married! even more than now at times come to think of it! which makes me believe even stronger that i am better off staying single!!!

but then i have this friend, i will name no names J! he kind of kicks my behind once in a while, he doesn't put up with my realtionship-men suck-crap, he wakes me up, he never tells me, he shows me, he let's me find out for myself, he nudges, never pushes me over the edge

this so called friend makes me cry sometimes, but at the end of the day he always makes me smile, truly smile on the inside but hang on! he is a man! ohhhh men suck remember!!!!

luckily this friend is my friend, has been for some time and always will be so no need to panic Tanya!

we are here for one thing he says: "LOVE" nothing else.

and let that be the one thing i want to cut out of my life!!! until i realised love is not to do with having a relationship! there are so many kinds of love: love for my children of course!!!! duh!! my love for my art, my love for my friends, my soulmate,my doggy, my ability to recover from anything and everything,.... i could go on for hours now you know hihi!

but then he goes further... you're on the right track babe! ... but you still need to open your heart to L-O-V-E, don't rule out possibilities of finding love, don't force it out, don't search for it! don't long for it, don't let it control your life, don't think you need it to be happy but do not rule it out!!!

pffff smart ass, was my first thought! but now...i think i am coming around to the idea... slooooowly okay J!? and... i promise not to throw away the key to my heart just yet...

but good, here i am today sharing a bit of a private conversation with you all! why? well to explain this page in my art journal! it's my travelling art journal, only pencils and markers when i'm on the road so no mixed media to help me get my thoughts sorted, just pencils and me! confronting really!!! i find it harder to do but liberating at the same time

"to fear love is to fear life"

so all there is left to do is wish you all a day filled with love, the kind you choose! free choice!!!

art journal

my page for today "Soul vs Ego"

winner blog give away!

and the winner is.......... DOLLS123!!! i don't know her real name, i know she lives in California! i've already mailed her to find out more about her so my gift will suit her!



thanks everyone for commenting on the give away post, many of you are reading but not commenting



i like having a give away! i like making a present for someone once in a while so i'll be doing these give aways more often, and for no special reasons hihi! just when i feel like it! when i'm in a giving mood haha!



i'm thinking of starting a blog challenge too, just thinking! i have so much on my plate at the moment so... that is for an other day.



here is my journal page from yesterday... i'm still on my red, orange and yellow colours which a really good thing!

you can click on the pic to see the details if you like! ( i think?!)

we were talking about Paris Hilton yesterday! about her entering the Scap world! bling and all!

Good for her!

so i had to use some really blingy Glitz stickles from Ranger ! i had to!! hihi!

It's a kind statement!

Be yourself and let them be theirselves!

xox tanya

another checking in before...

another checking in before the madness of a new week begins!

some time ago my little boy accidentally poured a cup of coffee over my precious laptop and those things do not take coffee you know! so bye bye laptop and bye bye over 500 pics of Ranger, New Jersey and New York, so sad!

i got sad news that 'llprobably never be able to get my pics off the laptop so for that i am still sad really but i kind of already had figured that and had nearly come to terms with it!

not that i am giving up,

i might still find some wizkid who knows how to reach them on my harddrive.

anyway! as a single mam with four to feed and crisis all over the world my common sense kind of wouldn't allow me buy a new laptop soooooo i decided to buy a mini version!

a cute little ACER ONE ASPIRE A150
it doesn't do everything my old laptop or my desktop does but it does let me go to internet, skype, facebook, msn, my blog, emails, it has Windows XP on it! yahoo for that! i can still upload pics onto it, so it does pretty much everything i want to do when on the road and away from home! so i'm realllllly happy with it! it weighs 800gr, really light! it fits into my handbag! it really does, so cute! and it is CORAL PINK!!!! so haha! i'm pleased with it!

and i got my hands on all the books following Twilight! i bought them all so i have some fun hours of reading ahead of me when i'm travelling and staying in hotels!

my ankle is less swollen, i fit into my hushpuppie boots once again! i am SOOOOO pleased with that!!! means i can wear a skirt! yes! my Timberlands do not rule my life any longer hihi! I will still wear them most of the time cos they do give more support to my ankle but hey! i can wear a skirt once in a while :-)

and i recieved this award from Nadia

and i recieved this Marie-Antoinette award twice! from Nadia and from Evelien

the idea is to pass them onto others of course!!

I'll have to come back on that when i have more time, at the moment 'm swamped with work!!

a page from my art journal

speak to you all soon!!!

see some of you very soon hihi!

creative journaling

just a quick pic of the page i did in my art journal today , letting off some steam...

my way of taking a deep breath of fresh air

click on the pic to get a closer look if you like

xox